My public name is Jackie Beltaine. It was given to me many years ago due to my involvement as an organizer of the LI Beltaine Festival. I kept it as a public name to maintain my privacy as I was raising a young child and didn’t need the “crazies” showing up on my doorstep.

I use it online because that’s how most people know me. Also because I’ve worked hard to keep myself hidden from my ex-husband—the physically, mentally and sexually abusive man that tried to kill me and my unborn child.

Due to FB’s name policy, I’ve had to put my legal name as my maiden name (or “other” name) to remain within their guidelines. It might be 22+ years later, but I still don’t want him finding me.